Do you ever wish you could push pause on life? Just take some time to figure out what you want, do all the little things on your to do list, sit outside with a book, cook because you feel like it…heck do anything but THINK.
This month marks a major milestone in my life. After college, I was excited to join the working world as a responsible adult and prove my value. I found a full time job immediately, but we quickly parted ways (to put it kindly) and a year later I moved on to Digital Evolution Group where I have spent the last 8 1/2 years growing in to an online consultant.
It’s a position that has allowed me to travel the country, learn new things, work with talented individuals, delve into the inner workings of amazing companies and receive offers from equally amazing companies for employment. While I truly I adore/respect the men I work for, after months of ongoing stressful situations and extra hours, I made the choice to press pause. It was time to take control of my health both physically and mentally. I want to feel better and I want to feel successful in what I’m investing my time in everyday. This was a decision that I mulled over for many months because I wasn’t sure if leaving meant I had failed, quit, give up? Or if I was breaking the rules of being a responsible adult by forgoing a good job in a crazy economy. What surprised me most was the immediate support I received from David, my family, my friends and yes even my bosses. They all have so much faith in my abilities it’s a little overwhelming, but fills my heart in a way that is hard to describe.
In every large decision there is the fear of getting it wrong, but the bigger fear is really in the not doing and always wondering. What could have been?
I chose to take this opportunity to write.
To take control of my life.
To follow a dream.
This will mean changes here at RunToTheFinish, but first there may be a period here where it slows down while I get my head focused. There are so many things I want to write and share, but I want to take the time to ensure my writing is what I want it to be…passionate, sincere, articulate and useful.
As stated by my favorite daily email from The Universe:
“Sometimes, Amanda, if the direction you're about to move feels "right" in your head and heart, yet the first few steps look pretty daunting, not fun, and maybe even scary, you should take those first few steps anyway and get 'em over with. “
Thanks to the thousands of you who over the years have shown me that sometimes the scary decisions are worth making. For all those who are dying to know what I’m doing and what this all means the answer is still “I’m not sure”. Being an insane planner by nature this is a strange place to be and yet also quite liberating.
I am going to pursue my love of writing. I am going to laugh more. I am going to move sometime this fall. And after all of that happens I am going to evaluate where I can be the most successful. It may be back at DEG with people I adore or it may be on the cover of a novel…not knowing is the beauty of this choice right now…it could be anything.
Are you pursuing your dreams? Are you in your dream job?
I am grateful for the support of those who matter most in my world and the opportunity to take this leap.